semblance of a good home

After spending the past two months feeling out of my element living on the North Side of Tucson (the land of cars, consumerism and rich retired folk), I have finally moved back downtown into a nice little place with a really nice rent $. I bought a cheap bike with a sweet basket on the front, and I also got a job as a server at a restaurant on, you guessed it, North Side! That plus some other projects in the pipeline should keep me plenty busy until I wander around again next summer. The weather here is gorgeous now, good energy around, plenty of fun, Beautiful times!

five things i love in my life right now

1. Kombucha tea
2. Hand drumming
3. Psy-dubby jams
4. Distracting people
5. Sun time in a cooling air

I just finished watching Zeitgeist: The Movie. (go to site to download the torrent or watch it in a web browser). Wow. What a heavy movie...Truth...put clearly....at least I think it is truth...I do believe it is more true than the information the government regularly gives us. At any rate, even if half of this movie is true, we're due for a revolution. Please watch it and decide for yourself.

I've been spending my time recently living like a professional VJ, except I haven't been making any money with it...whoops. Its actually pretty amazing how many positions I have applied for in the past month, all of which have been shot down. Am I on some kind of national do-not-hire list? Who knows. I even applied to 2 dishwashing jobs and a gas station clerk position today. Yeah, thats how desperate it has become. Not that I don't enjoy spending my time on personal pursuits, I'm just not good at making money with my personal pursuits...On a related note, maybe a revolution is occurring, one that causes a breakdown of currency as we know it in today's world. I feel the possibility on many levels. Whatever happens, I'm not stressed about it. Things tend to work out as they should.

Power up!

This will probably be my last post before Burning Man; In the next three days it all comes together, and it is feeling great! I'm scheduled to VJ at the Opulent Temple Wednesday for the White party, and Saturday late night. I can only begin to imagine what this experience off the grid will bring, but everything inside of me is foretelling of great things! I just need to keep love close to me, and all will unfold in beauty.

On the increasing polarization of concsiousness

I've spent the past three days gathering video berries to ultimately be triggered for VJing. The whole process lead me to think about our intentions in interacting with the environment and how we seek out new things. I then related that to the trends in consciousness in our modern culture. The trend is that of a polarization in information consumption. In this day we have the ability to quickly find almost any information that the human race has collected. However, a large segment of our population has not moved into the paradigm of self-paced information consumption. Many people still rely on Television or print media as their main source of information consumption. This is being force-fed. The term 'waking up' that is being used in alternative culture implies to break free of the mass-consumption information streams, to stop being spoon-fed information from sources outside of ones unique intentions, and to actively search for information on an alternate path.
So, what we have now is people who are on the mass consumption path, and the people who are on alternate paths of information consumption, paths that are scouted out by one's own intentions. This polarization is becoming increasingly evident. For instance, a good blogger aquires their content not from the mass sources, but from independently-motivated searching and gathering.
As a society we can now search for any term that interests us and tune into any stream of information in order to create our own unique space of feeling and understanding. The question is, do you take advantage of that ability, and how far down the rabbit hole do you go? Those answers determine the side of the consciousness pole on which you sit.

The wave of consciousness coherence

I dont know how everything is happening, but my actions have been speaking only of love, and so far it is working. In my experience, It is possible to turn any unwanted situation around with a good dose of love, and with love any dream is made possible. Love all as if all are perfect beings.
It is easy for me to say these things right now because I am in love, a chemical reaction that saturates me. Its one of those feeelings that really is inexpressible.
Why is the feeling so powerful right now, after such a strange past few weeks? A week ago I was saying I no longer have a girlfriend. I took days to accept it and be satisfied with that reality, and then it all changed. My heart opened back up, wider than ever. I turned one of the worst situations I could feel into something full of growth and ecstatic moment. Two weeks ago I was convinced the world was going to hell. Now I feel like everything bright is flourishing and working out the way it is meant to be.
In strange days we live. Such a wave of chaotic and synchronic events.

Reminder to myself

I am OK.
The first couple weeks back in town have been dramatic. Once again in this life, I'm needing to look into my source to find comfort, stability, and a sense of direction to keep myself together. So far it has been good for me (tough love), but I have to admit moments when I feel loopy and lost.
I'm still not sure of what to say about where I'm standing other than the general statement that I am standing in the 'now'. I guess things will unfold how they were always supposed. The Universe is in a constant state of settling.
In the meantime, I'm sticking close to my art and the people around me that help sustain the good vibrations. I have a lot of space to feel in a way that is unmitigated. I guess I am overdue for some of that. This is just the beginning. The time that lies before me is a sea of potential waiting to be manifest.